Wanting to want

(2992)  Liilay racecho e samsar

With divine sport this world You've formed;
I know not why, I don't know the reason.
Such a magic show, oh, such enigma;
I don't understand aught.

All those things that I hold dear–
In gladness and grief I laugh and weep–
They are untruth; mind wants not to regard.

In winter the heat, it sustains life,
In summer the coolness, it assuages,
In autumn and spring the fragrance excites;
But they are not, psyche does not regard.

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Gracious presence

(2991)  Ruper sayare ele arup ratan tumi

On a pond of form You appeared, the form-free jewel,
Everybody's ocean-churned gem.
Beyond thought You entered it, there made mind replete;
The heavens and the netherworld, they wed.

From crimson dawn to evening ruddy,
With just floral pollen a day red-flushed You bring.
Only Your affection the world goes on bearing;
Whatever the desire, You are commended.

Filled with darkness upon the night's coming,
A star-studded sky fetches a smile sweet.
On a flight of geese neath moonlight soars Your respect;
Of the whole earth You are its complete adornment.

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What change a day makes

(2990)  Varasa dine ghana varasa dine

On a monsoon day, a day intensely rainy,
The dark clouds in company,
You've arrived with sound of wind.
Day and night, on lute one-stringed,
Through just its resonance You've made effusive.

The sun has got concealed by the clouds ebony;
With meteoric speed a tempest is blowing.
In the same high velocity the peacock of psyche,
Its talk and tail, with sweetness You have filled.

Today there's green loveliness in the cane forest;
In the bamboo grove enticing are straw-bundles.
Oh my, on water lilies red and white, on lotus,
And on fresh blades of grass, elegance You've lavished.

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All over the place

(2989)  Bhevechilum tumi asibe

I had imagined that You will appear–
Promise having given, promise You will keep...
Fallen on a desert, alike unto dew,
You won't evaporate instantly.

All the defects of an atom, they reside in being–
Owing to that, a liila at time of Supreme.
Promise having given, then word not to keep:
Who will support it, do say please?

Frail am I, my defect is only this;
But to the frail also can abide a wish.
Purposely, distress why did You inflict:
Today with logic, face will You reveal?

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If You permit

(2988)  Kanta haye phutechilum

Become a thorn I had blossomed,
On the lotus stalk of Thee.
Forcefully a torrent had descended;
Me You whelmed with ecstasy.

I had been the pond beneath,
In the midst of water muddy.
Holding You upon my head,
Sorrow I've gone on forgetting.

Blows aplenty, have they not arrived,
The actions-and-reactions of life!
By not getting broken, Yourself
Skyward I have kept on raising.

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That day I asked

(2987)  Ankhite chilo je jal

In the eyes tears had been
The day that You were leaving.
To resist I was not able
On my own that nighttime, me.

Eyes were trained on eyes
When You said: "Soon I arrive."
This Your world remains behind;
Oh please don't go, myself forgetting.

Way back then I stated, "You will appear,
But how many ages– to count them will be!"
You declared, "Happen will a meeting
When enticed by love's yearning."

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Don't You see

(2986)  Srsti racecho e kii karecho

A universe You have built, what's this You've made;
Yourself, You've kept veiled!
Not remaining in the shrine,
At depths of mind You've stayed.

Your cosmic play is hard to comprehend;
Defeat, logic and reason tend to accept.
Not having stayed in floral bed,
You've sat on a thorny chair.

You're the Master, the refuge of everybody;
Those created and maintained, they follow You only.
Hence, the win of You alone they all sing;
You've bestowed the fervor theirs.

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What we seek

(2985)  Esecho esecho, tumi esecho kiseri tane

You have arrived, You have arrived,
You have come with which attraction?
Onto Earth's surface-dust, Yourself, You've declined,
Any and all vanity, having ignored.

A temple built with lovely jewels,
A lake adorned by tiirtha's sacred waters,
Not going close to anyone and taking naught,
With empty intent, oh why did You come?

Giving its fiery plume, You ignite the comet;
Dreading that flame, both Rahu and Ketu move in orbit.
Nature true lies in stability; wholly due to this,
Toward that alone You pull everyone.

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I have given You my everything

(2984)  Ei shukla nishiithe sumanda vate

On this clear late-night with a sweetly mild breeze,
Why are You remote, my Love?
Coming with the lower lip dyed and made ruddy,
Please remove my extreme delusion.

Lying abed, in dream, in sleep, or on waking,
Within hearing and cogitation I recall You only.
In absence of You, to me who else belongs,
The string of love to get a garland strung!

Oh the Innermost, You smile inside of me,
Lightening the load earthly.
Whelming with cadence and a lute's jingling,
To the night of existence, You convey the dawn.

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Partial to love

(2983)  Nam na jana mana na mana

Name unknown, revered or not,
Arriving beside, a colorful Fairy.
Eyes traced by golden beams,
He spoke to me, always smiling.

"My home is in splendor's realm;
With work the whole world I travel.
Those who long for Me, I lean toward them,
The persons who love Me.

"Incessantly I roam about;
Without halt I fly around.
Getting bound by love's strings,
I go on rising in a hymn's melody."

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The sweetness of You

(2982)  Jyotsna rate canderi sathe, tumi esechile kar tare

On a moonlit night with the moon along,
For whose sake had You come?
In a recess of the mind, with the wind sonorous,
Stealthily You went on singing a song.

In the depths of my thought I had been lonely;
When has gone the full moon at early morn, I didn't see.
Like a golden streak on gray cloud's body,
Traced upon that gloom light had become.

Musing on that, with a shiver mind thrills;
Divine realm descends to this dusty earth.
All sense-perception gets this realization:
Surrounding me day and night You are.

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Had He stayed longer

(2981)  Kon se ajana pathik esechilo

Which is that Unknown Pilgrim Who'd appeared;
Light He lit in a dark dwelling.
There had been no speech; a mouth with gentle grin,
The smile of lower lip, it went on lavishing.

Silently He had come from which unknown place;
Work accomplished, by what strange mode went He away.
Coming for an instant, a transitory love,
Why did it trace a line long-lasting?

At that time to know His particulars I did not wish;
Even still, acquaintance the mind does not imagine.
Simply, in thought of Him is honey-smeared intoxication;
What was given, forever it enticed me.

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Opened was a chink

(2980)  Je diiper shikha jvele diyecho tumi

The lamp-flame that You've ignited
In this dark cosmos,
Under just its light they flickered,
Refulgent the atoms.

In a wink, inert sleep was broken,
Fatigue and delusion shattered in a moment.
With hues aplenty was illuminated
By a light-stream disrepute's ebon.

What I could not imagine, that alone happened;
Within the gloom arrived an optic sense.
My spark of love's cascade did ascend;
To the new-moon night, perforation.

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Despite all my limitations

(2979)  Tomar patha ceye basechilum ami

Watching Your path, seated had I been;
Your story alone have I contemplated.
Gotten lost is my world's every shape;
I have gone on singing Your hymn.

My coming and going was to decrepit atmosphere;
My pondering was in the same impaired periphery.
But with that meager scope, speculation's web weaving,
I have understood You are everyone's central jewel.

Musing on Thee, diffused into Infinity the limited becomes;
Your hymn having sung, effusive becomes bosom.
Between You and me there's no more obstruction;
At Your lotus feet have I taken shelter.

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Final attainment

(2978)  Tomar saunge mor paricay, kabe pratham hayechilo

With You my acquaintance,
When first it had been,
That is not today!
The year and day I've forgotten;
But shyness and fear, they have waned.

From the fountain of which Unknown Entity,
Had I risen, floating on a thought-stream?
That Strange Being alone, it is You, Lord;
Most assuredly, I have understood the same.

Even still I'm traveling to the Mystery;
Through cadence and song You are calling.
The end of all knowledge is within Thee,
Hey, the Embodiment of Consciousness, beyond shape.

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My one desire

(2977)  Tomar ei bhaver ghare ami eka

I'm alone in this Your notion's abode;
To my home, You please come.
Arriving at my dwelling, make completion;
Do appear in my thoughts.
You've gone on keeping lit the torch;
By that flame, always be brightened up.

I want nothing in Your presence;
I would give all there is, whatever.
What's kept me hemmed by spell of blind attachment,
Through that flame, it as well please exhaust.

What I say from mouth, let me perform in deed;
Having come, may I not shun ordeal.
With every action allow me to recall Thee;
Upon my mind-sky, You please forever soar.

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You came into my life

(2976)  Tomay ami pelum

Yourself did I obtain
On the far shore of a dark ocean,
Like a golden streak of light.
My inertial slumber You broke
By music's sleepless fall and rise.

With much cadence You did come,
Afloat upon a stream of euphoria.
All the gloomy ignorance You got rid of
By an implication sublime.

You effused in all directions;
You infused honey in the bud.
Mind You entered with enchanting thought,
By a myrtle's beauty fine.

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Your prodigal son

(2975)  Sadher malakhani enechi

A selected garland I have brought,
Because, Lord, I will make You wear it.
From the mental realm blooms have I culled;
On string of love in solitude I've threaded.

On that I've smeared the sandal of heart-core;
Lavishly I've conferred all the nectar of my bosom.
Effusive become, I've been waiting at the door
To hear a footfall every single minute.

Don't frustrate me, look with eyes of kindness;
Awaken a fresh flood-tide in a life afflicted.
From my mind obliterate what is good or wicked;
I have come away from the peerless shelter.

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Plan of a simple man

(2974)  Shunini ami prabhu path bhule kabhu

Lord, I did not hear that ever, forgetting path,
You have come to someone's dwelling
Only once momentarily.
Customarily, You proceed in routine series;
Thinking thus, mentally I've wept profusely.

My virtues, they are not accrued;
In store-room has remained a vacuum.
There was no awareness, Your work I did not do;
Tied to matter had I been, in blind-attachment deeps.

I have not philosophy's wisdom;
To scripture never did I pay attention.
Yourself I adore, just for Your smile I pray;
I don't want heaps of grace, a tiny grain please grant me.

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Ignorance and longing

(2973)  Bhuvane raye gecho gopane

Secretly You've remained in the cosmos;
Oh so abstruse is Your sport!
You do not approach, why– who knows;
Game You make of many colors.

With eyes full of hope I pine;
To see somewhere, I don't find.
Like a musk deer, upon woodland path race I;^[1]
I don't know why You make me anxious.

You stay beyond the range of language;
On thought's pollen You coat nectar.
In both joy and sorrow, You keep a constant watch;
How You go on alone, I don't fathom.

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I am Yours anyhow

(2972)  Tomari name gan dharechi

For just Your fame a song have I borne;
On just Your path only, I have gone.
With Your divine thought become overflowing,
Just Your lamp in hand I've brought.

You alone are the quintessence;
Fathoming Your nature is a challenge.
Naught having understood through intellect,
For a trace of Your grace I've implored.

You are always with, mind You have filled;
On earth and in heaven, colors You've affixed.
The Bodiless Guest, You heed not days auspicious,
Hence, I have surrendered my all.

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No more the critic

(2971)  Tomare khunjite giye bare bar

Time after time I have gone in search of You;
I've returned, having become stymied.
For a moment, look on with eyes of compassion;
A tiny speck of mercy I have kept imploring.

To promote myself,
Unknowingly, I achieve only self-wreck.
Henceforth I'll evoke unit mind's development;
Gloomy ignorance I have been rending.

Nothing do I possess, that I know well;
Yet Your things, mine I go on calling them.
I believe naught is there, suffering from indigence;
I don't view closely what I have received.

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A small sacrifice

(2970)  Diip jvele jai andhare sadai

Against darkness a lamp I always set alight;
I would stay forgetting ignorance of mind.
Lord, kindly grant a matchstick in my hand;
Igniting light I go on gliding, skein like.

The ruin of all darkness, to everyone magnanimous,
Ever novel songs Your proximity affords.
Cadence and keynotes it imbues in the whole cosmos;
Speechless and surprised, I look on high.

With Your flame, Lord, just Your lamp I ignite;
It's Your ghee and Your wick, not a thing have I.
Having produced that light, the dark I cast far aside;
Other than You no one do I spy.

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Wanting what I have already

(2969)  Jene na jene ami ceyechi tomay

Knowingly unknowingly Yourself have I spied,
In the casket of my mind.
Nearby You'll appear, on this I had relied;
I am full of hope day and night.

Many days did retire, many evenings came;
Many dyed flowers, neath sunshine fell away.
By many a solar eclipse the sun got veiled;
But this same history, forgotten have I.

Many nights ended, lost was so much moonlight;
Fragrance of the garden flew off to the sky.
By many a lunar eclipse, with gloom the moon combined,
Through ignorance, impervious and unkind.

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I don't know if You'd been sleeping

(2968)  Andharnisha pohalo

Dark night expired;
Light arrived, it arrived.
A florid sun's colored luster,
Atop eastern morn-mountain^{[nb 2]} it did strike.

What I never conceived, it is only that I witness;
So much did it brighten my mind and existence!
By just its complexion, with just its affection,
It coated nectar upon everything of mine.

I don't find a place to stay concealed;
It's as if someone keeps saying: "I want you only".
Due to You alone, a crimson dawn arrived,
The birds called to bid You rise;
By just Your intention, on Your perception,
Love thrived.

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You won't get rid of me so easily

(2967)  Cidakashe tumi esechile

Upon sky of mind You'd appeared,
Strewing sweetness, filling psyche.
At which place hard to reach did You go hiding?

Why continue playing this hide-and-seek game;
Maddening with delight, cry profusely You make.
You beckon only from far away,
Having discarded me through what kind of sorcery!

Not having come near, more calls I'll hear not;
But that, Your beckoning, I will forget not.
Though to hold Your lotus feet, You allowed not,
Each moment I'll keep them bound through thinking.

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With You in my life

(2966)  Gan geye jai tomake shonai, ar keba ache prthiviite

A song I go singing, I sing to You;
On the earth who else is there?
Mine You say, mine You say!
Melody I've practiced, strings I have tuned;
Teeming with Your thinking I remain.

Sweetness of a vernal breeze in my rumination,
It pervades that melody, frequently and more.
In solitude with music modes in my heart,
Restless myself gladness makes.

To strings of the lute I have bound a tune;
How many sounds I have raised in a hundred moods.
Your inspiration, my exploration,
That, they set ablaze.

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