In this very life I will find Him

(3678) Priya jadi na elo phire

If the Beloved did not come afresh, For Whose sake am I, for Whom will I stay resident? Air and sky estranged, ransacked is a planet; Amid molecule, for Whom will I quest. I'll look for Him in nebula; I'll search in moon and star. Ever seeking in heaven afar, Having caught, I will fetch. At a distance He can't dwell; My mental cavern I'll inspect. By love, Himself I'll surely get On the other shore of darkness. Sarkarverse article Audio recording

You can do better

(3677) Amake priya tumi bhuliya gecho

Darling, myself You've forgotten. There are many loving You still more; A petty 'I' You have sounded. My Dear, no intellect, patience, or strength have I; There is no stored-up fruit of samskara benign. Salty water from pain-wet eyes... Is that why far away You've retreated? I am Your place-of-worship's earthen lamp, In trembling breast, asway like half-blown kadam. The ruby dot upon a forehead sweat-dabbed You have forgotten; You've done well. Sarkarverse article Audio recording

Hallucinogenic

(3676) Vishvabhuvane dola lagiyecho

You've set asway the universe entire; Dance You've made in body and mind. The moon, star, planet, and nebula... Everyone You've filled with life. Your fondness, ever it sparkles; Rushing out, it frolics on Earth and in Heaven. By a string of waves from the cloud's body, Sweetness You've made betide. Telling Your majesty does not succeed; Concept does not find the language of speech. On coast of wisdom's sea or at heart's core, in depths, With many a color brightly You've dyed. Sarkarverse article Audio recording

Don't mind me

(3675) Tahari ashay patha ceye hay

The path is watched, alas, in hope of Him only; Day after day of mine disappears. If someone would console, please ignore this worry; For the person who gets Him, the sky's moon is He. I see my love sprawling neath the splendor of moonlight, Veiled eyes bashfully inviting nigh. Smearing just His pollen on each molecule of mind, Swoons remembrance in a constant reverie. Gracefully, the Stamen of a lotus speaks; "Who, when and where finds the flag, it is by mercy. He blends hue with His, who continues in dhyan calling; In the heart of her alone scintillates He. Sarkarverse article Audio recording

Lord, my heart is full

(3674) Ami tomay bhalabasi, janai kii kare bojhai kare

Yourself I adore; How do I describe, I edify whom? Entering inside mind, You fathom My thoughts unexpressed, like the flow of Phalgu.[1] My thought does not find language; All hope is pain-struck. Desert-thirst, summer's corpse, Tears they exude. Like a river spilling o'er the shore, A ballerina dances, churning thought. Surging upwards is effusive heart, Calmly unmoved. Sarkarverse article Audio recording

The crest to my trough

(3673) Saomya ramya prashanta dhiir

You are unruffled, idyllic, tranquil and steady; In a storm-tossed life, You are the southern breeze. The solemn Himalayan mountain, banner of lightning, You're the Black-Curdled Ocean, in thought very deep. On Summer's burning anguish, You are sandal paste; At monsoon's screwpine forest, the fragrant air. In Autumn's kush and kash, the sound chaste; From a white cloud o'er anxiety, the dew refreshing. On Prewinter at close of night, the misty fog; With Winter's fall of ice, the fright awesome. At Phalgun's abode, a green-leaved garland Plays a song of Your veena in the Spring. Sarkarverse article Audio recording

True worth

(3672) Tomar katha bheve din cale jay

Contemplating You daytime goes away; Yourself do I love, oh I hold dear. At Your Gokul of mind, light-rays coruscate; By that light, eyes are kept smiling. Unfamiliar and unknown, You are my own nonetheless: The Master, Eternity's quintessence. Absent You I don't exist, this fact I grasp constantly; Compassion Thine is gloom's undoing. With soul You are mingling, hey the Unseen Godhead; Not having got to see, I cry... this is my foolishness. Rashly discarding knowledge for an oyster-shell silvery, Toward mirages I come racing.  Sarkarverse article Audio recording

Fearsome Friend

(3671) Sudur ambare meghadambaru

On far-distant firmament a damaru of clouds Sounds Your clarion,[1] and quakes all of Creation. When You dance tandava with furious ideation, All the filth and gloom, demolished it be. Through an infallible trident, Heaps of sin, root and branch, float off whence. Vice You rid, aloud You laugh; By third eye any injustice You sear. Subduing evil, You're protector of the righteous; Beauty of the universe, You're the love of everyone. Who knows whereto it departs by Your darts dreaded; From the earth all depravity retreats.  Sarkarverse article Audio recording

So fine on the outside

(3670) Tomake peyechi kata tapasyay

By however much austerity, attained You have I... Inside my heart-core, You remain still more near. To contemplate it feels fine, like a sweet moonlight; Round about You dances my psychic honeybee. The Earth's quintessence, hey Beloved, Everyone's reverend couturier... By action-inclined intellect, fit to be remembered, Hey the Splendor Unseen, everybody prays always to Thee. Your chest of affection, it is endless; Granting compassion, always it goes on and often. Hey the precious Lapis Lazuli, immense mine of diamonds, In life and in death, Your sweetness reigns supreme.  Sarkarverse article Audio recording

With You as my Companion

(3669) Ami caini kona kichu tomar kache

I wanted nothing in Your presence; I have simply gone on singing, I have kept singing. I made no declaration, ever having begged; In meditation I've kept seeing, song I've gone on singing. Between You and me the distance is hard to cross; Full of tunes unknown, immense had it been, without shore. Utterly full of desolation, it had been cloaked in fog; And yet I have kept pondering, a song I've gone on singing. Master, You showed unearned kindness; You remained looking toward a face despondent. I am and will continue staying for the whole of time endless; With You I have been in love, a song I've gone on singing.  Sarkarverse article Audio recording

Wanting is not receiving

(3668) Alo esechilo phul phutechilo

Light had arrived, flower had blossomed; Why did You not come? A cloud had told, the wind had sung: Be known He will come, that One Adored. Mind had believed no more tardiness will be; With night jasmine fragrance those same words speak. The cuckoo coos in my ears two; In them had it said, fetch from cogitation. I don't understand at all why You did not appear; After soul searching, I proceed knowing: This dark home for entrance into, I ignited no lamp, not a one.  Sarkarverse article Audio recording

Life is replete, because I love You

(3667) Tumi jano kina jani na

Whether You realize, I know not; Yourself love I Whether You look or don't look at me, I see Your sweet smile. If You wish to keep forgetting, go on ignoring; Otherwise, draw me near. If by fog You let be ringed, Stop not Your charming pipe. Nothing for me I desire, Not to be king, even of Kuber's empire. Having contemplated You I become satisfied With life all the time, day and night.  Sarkarverse article Audio recording

On a shoreless sea You are my one and only anchor

(3666) Tomar ratul carane more

Toward Your rosy feet, myself unto, Hey Master, grant a love unlimited. I float like blade of straw on water; At lotus feet I crave refuge forever. Floating on a mundane stream I move; In the world I've no tie of roots. Hither and thither do I wander; Peace I find not, station I don't discover. Since when the start of floating; One knows not of its history. For a while You make one see the mind-jewel; For a bit You make heard hymns of fearlessness.  Sarkarverse article Audio recording

The thrill is keen

(3665) Gane gane bhariye dile

With many songs did You fill This Your world, hey my Lord. Dances both the atom and molecule; In song's music mode, puny and large. The nebula, on does it dance; The meteor and star do prance. Planet and moon, they caper; Remain dancing, great and small. The peacock, with tail it dances; Autumn, with kush-kash and night jasmine. Honeyed buds and silken shoots, Simultaneous in Spring, dancing they cause.  Sarkarverse article Audio recording

Only You encourage me

(3664) Jhalamala alote dhara tumi daoni

You did not surrender to glittering light-rays; Upon tears of grief, Bosom Friend, You had come. Toward a decorated altar, You didn't gaze, even by mistake; Upon wails of pain You had granted vision. With Shravan's load of clouds, in life You had appeared; Billowy waves, they had shattered in dream. None were close, all have gone far away in fear; You alone, having come, had said I'm not abandoned. With Neptune's tandav, like a fire's burning, Each moment You were with me, in all my dearth and plenty. Never You withdrew afar, Lord, under shelter You have kept; On a singed forehead You've traced an unbeatable tika.  Sarkarverse article Audio recording

By Your grace

(3663) Varasa esechilo bharasa diyechilo

The rains had come, confidence they'd given Earth will get anew lush verdancy. Amid that same faith, in beauty reigned Your song; In it had been Your love replete. Moorhens will call again, pied cuckoos won't covet water; With the peacock's tail will dance a rousing sentiment. In many rhythms and music beats, the screwpine blossoms Will give pollen from a driven psyche. On the bank of lake will rise the sound of frogs; Bumblebees will buzz around the stamen of cadamba. Beyond reach of mind, on the far shore of fog, The Star of North will sparkle brightly. Sarkarverse article Audio recording

I cannot forget

(3662) Tumi chile sukhashayane

You had been upon a bed of ease; I have gone on calling and calling, Beloved. My call did not pierce Your idle ear, But I forsook nonetheless. At Vaekuntha You had been sunk in sleep; Days have passed effort-free on an earth without mercy. Forgetting my direction, You looked not eyes opening; You saw not how much I have wept. Yours alone is everything: water, sunlight, fruit, and blossom; Not a thing belongs to me... I'm a beggar of Your favor. At every pasture You dance, with both lips You grin; In Maya's slumber I have not forgotten. Sarkarverse article Audio recording

When ego's bubble bursts

(3661) Ganer e aunginate

At this courtyard of song You arrived on this same morn. You'd been hid in mind's collyrium; Suddenly You permitted vision. You're the world's quintessence; Yours is all action and knowledge. By vanity becoming drunk, Mind to deceive, I believe to me belong. Absent You none else is there; A bubble Yours is everybody. At Your sea ablution having done, Finally with Thee will I move in unison. Sarkarverse article Audio recording

A snake swallows its tail

(3660) Ele arupa srote ruper paridhite

Came You, the Formless, on stream in form's circumference; Hari, my most Beloved, You remove the dark. With Generation, Operation, and Destruction at fixed residence, Hey the Bliss-Player, You make liila. When You entered into form, the form-free Godhead, Which was that time of yore with a light fest? Vitality, by which elixir did You spread; And how many diadems were retracted from a Kamsa? Never does it happen, Your coming and going; Master, You are not obstructed by an erstwhile territory. Nonetheless, the foolish mind invites Yourself near, Even though You are intralocomotional.  Sarkarverse article Audio recording

Only slightly visible

(3659) Tomare ceyechi gopane

Yourself have I wanted privately; Beloved mine, You are everybody's boon companion. You are in an existence, with rhythm and song replete; Though fit for recollection, in fact You're enveloped. Alongside, a lamp of light You've retained, Mid leaves of love a swing You have swayed. Also the one slighted, with You is he placed; No one in the universe You ever make lonesome. Whose someone isn't anywhere, he too calls out to Thee, Through gaps of only cloud external-and-internally. Though dormant in the worldly, in thought You are shining, Exquisite with white moonlight, the full moon at dawn.[1]  Sarkarverse article Audio recording

Even though we don't spot

(3658) Banshari bajiye jay sahasa nayane cay

A bamboo flute He goes on playing, looks with eyes smiling, Today in Gokul He makes sport, Golok's Hari. With painted lower lip He entertains; Ever calling, everyone He tells: "Rush near!" None is not His kindred, distant is nobody; All are family, He finds everyone in thinking. The Jamuna, upstream with waters lively does it race; A string of waves sway like His wreath of rosary peas. For quelling the wicked, the righteous to maintain, Sin's flag of carnage, its collapse to make, He comes frequently, a drumbeat with bow's twang; In this world a store of virtue His like is not there. Sarkarverse article Audio recording

Everything I be...

(3657) Je amare jahai baluk

Whatever anyone myself may tell, Yourself I've held dear. Your arrival and Your smile, In my life they play a pipe of reed. All hope of mine relies on Thee; I will go on staying in abode of psyche. Hey the Messenger of Peace, Unruffled Beauty, So it is I come again frequently. You are ever in Vraja's ideation; You've remained coated by the phag of my love. Hey the One by milkmaids adored, For Your sake only, do I laugh, do I weep. Sarkarverse article Audio recording

Maybe it won't be today

(3656) Akash balechilo vatas balechilo

The sky had told, the wind had said– They had hinted to everyone: The Sun, You will arrive; You'll abide no privation; Unholy practice will finish on this earth's surface. In the heavens comets fearsome will not dance any more; Golden existence won't permit tails of destruction. Become introspective, heart-filled will be all; Earth's Onus-Remover, every moment they will get Your love. For Your auspicious advent, the world is ready; You allow it be made wholly self-sustaining. Drowsiness dispelled, salvation-road is seen quickly, You let it be lively-made with a mind-strength vigorous. Sarkarverse article Audio recording

Help me to help You

(3655) Giitir kanu priitir kanu

Kanu[1] of song, Kanu of love, Kanu of Vraj, this earnest petition, It's in my mind: At a sweet garden, Hey Mohan,[2] do smile with conviction. Searching for that does not finish In a mountain cave or remote jungle. Only that is on mind's floral dais; Please arrive, clad regally, hey Avatar of Sport. To speak of Your merit, To promote Your name's luster, By a string of waves from nectar's ocean, Hey the Lord of Heartcore, show compassion. Sarkarverse article Audio recording

What did You say?

(3654) Tumi kii cao ami janina

What You crave, I know not; What's it You say, I grasp not. Oh Who are You, the Unfamiliar Pilgrim; Just for an instant why don't You stop? Blessing of heaven You have brought; You've effused a heap of love. Risen have You in the mind-pores; To fathom this liila I cannot. Like moonlight's moon You've brightened up; You've overlaid rainbow colors. Wild You've driven with a monsoon song, Hey the One Inchoate and Incog. Sarkarverse article Audio recording

Benevolence begins with Him

(3653) Shivashaunkaraha he shubhaunkarah

Shivashankar, hey the Auspicious One, Seed of the world, Master, storehouse of compassion, Like a silver mountain is Candrashekhar, A gem resplendent, welfare's source. You've a battle-axe in hand, with aim to bless and rid fear; E'er I prostrate before Thee, kindly take pity on me. May You be pleased, hey the Perception of Intention, Clad in tiger-skin and wielding bow thunderous. Established in the principle of social equality, Your sea of attributes, by scripture it is not revealed. Particles of dust from Your feet, please give to me; Transcendental and primordial, undaunted Lord. Sarkarverse article Audio recording

Kidnapped or eloped

(3652) Niilsayarer svarnakamal phutechilo kabe

When it had bloomed, the golden lotus of blue sea,[1] Who perceives? Amid blue ocean's bosom, with the light's festivity, In a song of sweet amity... Having lifted face underneath the rays of morning, In the wind it was swaying like a dangling earring. To present a scent honeyed it was not forgetting, From just the wine of love and a life cadence-replete. Suddenly, that one fairy, Catching it, off she carried. No taboo did she heed; All pain's while totally mute, in privacy. Sarkarverse article Audio recording

Seeing You on the path

(3651) Varasamukhara rate sajala ankhipate

On a rain-loud night, through wet eyelids, Watching Your arrival-path, awake I'd been, hey bosom friend. Outside was a storm, alone had I been seated; I'd imagined that piercing the fog, Your sight I'll get. Like fire is Your sacred and profound love; Having rid mind's filthiness, it rouses splendor. It expels affliction, far away all fear becomes; Like a gem-studded jewelbox, upon eyes a tika golden. There's no day, no moment, no right or wrong time; Of Your coming-and-going, no periphery do I find. Stored in You we see everything we desire; We sense a moonlight fixed amid conscious existence. Sarkarverse article Audio recording

Lonesome at Gokul

(3650) Krsna bina e niipakuinja

Without Krsna is this bower of neep. Having lost its beauty and become speechless, On a bed of dust the karanja weeps. Grass renounced and face raised, Braj milchcows see not the view; Though all ears, they don't hear anybody's bamboo flute. Peacocks no longer dance, the pied cuckoos[1] don't gauge water; Wagtail birds have become gimpy. Flow of the Jamuna, no more upstream does it hie; With hue, the kingfisher and carambola do not entice the mind. The frog along with moorhen, they don't invite rainfall's advent; On the sky accumulation of dark cloud is not there. Sarkarverse article Audio recording

In the Vrndavan of mind

(3649) Gopiijanavallabha nitya anubhava

A constant experience of the Gopiis' Darling Sails on the air of imagination only mine. Sandalpaste of Madan, the King of Braj pleasing, Like the bright moonlight, it smiles. This Krsnacandra is never made Rahu's morsel; He has no expectation, this King of the Mind-realm. He goes on pouring love, nothing does He covet; By His own revelation, ever publicized. The Cosmic Overlord, the Ultimate Refuge of All, Please look with eyes of mercy, a loving splendor. At feet I stoop... Hari, kindly stay close ever more, Within the Vrndavan of mind. Sarkarverse article Audio recording

Maybe you should think twice

(3648) Rturaj ese kane kaye geche

Springtime having come, it has gone on whispering: "Hear my words, Bud. Today do not blossom. You'll get anguish; the Dear One will not come. That Mind-King, pain He will not fathom. Like fire He will burn in psyche; Staying far away, with dance He will drive crazy. He will smile sweetly, but He won't yield; He will make you weep, that same Shameless One. He'll play on a bamboo flute in ragas unparalleled; With rhythm and song, a sweetness the best. Pouring that He will leave, He'll sadden inconsolably; At unseen place He will stay, the Three Worlds'[1] Overlord. Sarkarverse article Audio recording