Oh Lord it hurts!

(3395) Elo na elo na se ajo

Came He not, came He not, even today;
So did He forget me?
A stream from eyes flows on a hundred ways;
Oh, did He not understand my feelings?

The rain waters are falling without stop;
The mind peacock romps, beholding Him not.
With cloudy boundaries, not His, are daubed
The lines of stibnite like wine love-smeared.

There is not hope in the midst of cloudy collyrium;
There is no light of laughter, there is no tongue.
I beg just His caress, a rhythmic song's affection,
With fest of life in niche of mind hard to reach. 

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Ever unworthy and yet

(3394) Duhkhe sukhe asha nirasha phanke

Twixt grief and gladness, in chinks between hope and despair,
With both gloom and luster my days go by.
At any time Dawn may draw nigh upon the dance stage;
On golden shore might coruscate Your light.

Hey my Lord, I want that You come closer please;
Of all the great pageantry You are the totality.
The essence of essence in all happenings,
You're the bright blue lotus in the Heaven of mind.

I am sinful, and mine is no sadhana, I concede;
For the Supreme Being is no steadfast longing.
Nevertheless, there's no prohibition to come near;
You're the crimson glow on the coast of life.

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Roused from sleep

(3393) Jhainjhavate ghurnivaye tumi esechile

Like a gale, like tornado, You had come;
I had been dozing.
Through cadence and tune on the mental mirror,
Myself You woke up;
I had peered.

All events of the past have I forgotten;
Looking toward a new dawn have I been.
Stories of ancient days, lost memories' torment,
Everything cast adrift I let be.

Stately coming near, words did You utter;
A mental niche hard-to-reach You entered.
Honeyed that contemplation, radiant that awareness,
In that myself I went swimming.

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Our Father Who art on Earth

(3392) Tumi bhalor bhalo sabar mukha ceye

You're better than good, to every look compared;
Crossing the darkness, You have brought light rays.
Through cadence and song, Yourself with smiling face,
By means of love, obstacles You've assailed.

No one is Your stranger, everyone the closest kin;
Everyone the gem of eye, everyone beloved.
In person upon path having alit, thinking of every tale,
With everybody You proceed apace.

Such nocturnal penance on nights of the new moon;
So much pain was repressed, by language refused.
You had been with all, in thought You did pervade;
Those who'd been rolling in dust, upon lap You did take.

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You could, but You don't

(3391) Tumi kii cao jani na

Oh You, what You want I know not.
Through liila's sport, Yourself why,
In the front You come not?

Passionately I hold dear;
Coming, why don't You yield?
Secretly in a corner of psyche,
What You get, You tell not.

Dense darkness of a new-moon night,
Enveloping, Your luster hides.
All the anxiety of an atomic mind,
You don't levitate, but why not?

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Lord, have You forsaken me?

(3390) Tumi bhumajyoti ami khadyotdyuti

You are the Light of God, I am a glowworm's ray;
As to my capacity, what words do I say in Your company?
You are the Brahma Kamal, I am filthy straw;
Dyed am I; about Your hue what do You speak?

When into mind You come, myself You love;
You smile gently in the kadam arbor.
Forgetting my penury, I drift in a thought-stream,
With diverse colors on an existential beach.

When You remain hidden, don't You open orbs?
Though having called a hundredfold, no reply do You accord.
In jeopardy, without a shore I float on the eyes' tears;
Having looked, I see You laugh atop a mountain peak.

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Please prove me wrong

(3389) Tomay ami bhalabasi, ta ki jano na

For You I have a fondness;
That, don't You know it?
You know it not!
Lonesome, in notion and meditation, I desire;
That, don't You grasp it– You fathom not.

You are everybody's gem of diadem,
The diamond mine of a dismal planet.
Constantly I listen to Your chronicles;
That, don't You hear it– You listen not!

Neath stormy winds with falling ice,
Ever with me You abide.
Your thunderbolt's a friend of mine;
That, don't You recognize– You heed it not!

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His blissful advent

(3388) Tumi esecho madhurii jhariyecho

You've arrived, You've made sweetness issue forth;
Heavenly happiness You have brought.
To the gloomy mind, with an air of sensibility
You've infused all things wholesome.

Who can tell the tale of Your qualities?
By hues of Your forms, full is the mind of everybody.
Your love is all defilement-dispelling;
In that You have steeped a song.

Hey the Great Ocean, Thine is no shore, not the least;
Bubbles of Your thought are we, everybody.
With love's cadence and song, with ambrosial throbbing,
Making everybody dance, on You've gone.

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You know it is a big change

(3387) Ami chilum base tomari ashe

I'd been waiting in just Your anticipation;
You did not arrive, not a word did You speak;
Futile was my water-pot's mango leaves;
Vain became all garlands strung of longing.

Toward a cozy nest at glow of dusk the bird speeds;
Seeing the moon, a lily rises neath twilight's reddish gleam.
On this my evening, You fathom the mind's affliction.

Darkness-wrapped the sun, at eastern mountain^[1] it's not there;
But the dawn's crimson streak, forgetting aught did not leave.
As You are listening, You understand anxious confusion.

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Oh my sweet Darling

(3386) Tomake sakalei je cay

Yourself everyone, they request.
With Your qualities, Your poetry,
Under tow of Your gaiety,
Afloat, the world goes ahead.

Oh You are mine, and I am Yours;
All other things are lacking worth.
In mind this is the gist I preserve
Each and every moment.

Upon its own orbit the Earth reels,
Circling e'er Your lotus feet.
Tearfully I entreat
Your divine kindness.

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Lovingly synchronous

(3385) Niilsayarer svarnakamal

The blue sea's gold lotus,
Why she was blooming, did anyone perceive?
No, no, no, she was in my psyche!
She was giving swing, was waking thought,
Was making known her pain secretly.

Humming in a candied anticipation,
Coming was the Bumblebee, taking precaution.
Floral pollen and whatever devotion,
On her Most Beloved she was lavishing.

In my own mind she was speaking;
Those her words, knows she only.
Like a mental peacock, at a distance staying,
Sensing Him, she was dancing, solitary.
With lively delight at remote site in ecstasy,
For no reason with a smile He was rising.

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Beyond distinction

(3384) Aloker oi jharnadharay, snan karate tumi ele

In yon cascade of light rays,
To make bathe, You arrived.
Pate's diadem setting aside,
You blessed with water of sacred site.

Distinction of friend and foe You excised;
You displayed a new life.
Beast, bush, and bird You did familiarize;
Everyone is our own, You advised.

No one is distant, everyone is family;
The cosmos is for the sake of everybody.
Kith and alien, useless is the measuring;
The world moves, taking all alike.

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Such a delight

(3383) Dhulir dharaniite madhurii dhalite

On a dusty earth to confer sweetness
You have come at present...
To give consolation's nectar to a weeping vortex,
Persons mute to make fluent.

Those who'd fallen behind, neglected and necessitous,
You broke their life's utterly gloomy prison.
You attracted everyone, let be forgot their difference;
The many You took and wed.

Who had been in despair, who'd been sinking into gloom,
Receiving with joy and shame, they welcomed You.
Everybody went along, gained the light a generation new,
With the thrill of each moment.

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With Him by our side

(3382) Se din sandhyay smita vasudhay

On a smiling Earth that day at dusk,
You'd come to my dwelling.
In mind there'd been inclination, joy in meditation;
Upon eyes You let be traced antimony.

Hand held on head, You did speak,
All pain removing instantly.
You said: "Came storm and gale, but don't fear;
Around you I am here.

"Rise-and-fall, also contraction-and-expansion
Appear on the journey, but they're as naught.
Your aim having retained, proceed with conviction,
Bringing forth the victory of humanity."

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It's been great

(3381) Amar pather shese esechi

To my road's end I have reached;
No other corridor is there.
Myself on Your path only You impel;
Just along that path I'd proceed.

On my path filled with barbs,
Stricken had I been, incessant.
Wounded by stones each moment,
In vain I've searched for peace.

With no start or end to that path,
In rhythm and in hymn I'll pass.
You will endure with light in hand;
And so a song of love I sing.

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After a lifetime of waiting

(3380) Tomay pavar asha niye

Taking hope of getting Thee,
I have stayed attentive.
Yes I, for Your sake, Gemstone of the Ocean,
I have counted the moments.

Many nights have become morning,
Many fallen stars have disappeared,
So much moonlight has gone missing;
The count I've forgotten.

Not informing, one autumnal evening
Amid psyche, Yourself You appeared
In unfamiliar dress, new and charming;
I have known You nonetheless.

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Why do You toy with me?

(3379) Jeo na jeo na, arale jeo na

Don't go away, please don't leave;
Vanish not behind a screen.
If mayhap I forget,
Please don't neglect me.

Upon young grass, a green carpet alike,
In psychic looking glass, like a floral smile,
At times You come near and at times float afar;
Why don't You understand the mental agony?

Through light and darkness Your Sport is amazing;
From within the mind, it's a game with psyche.
Amid thought, with thought is a merrymaking,
Why do You not rid thought's shortcoming?

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One of us might make no sense

(3378) Amar e kathin hiyay

Into this hard heart of mine,
Will You come or not, I don't know.
If You arrive only by making mistake,
It does not matter even so.

With form's luster altar having adorned,
Endlessly I go on singing songs.
With Your melody, with Your thought,
With Your words, I compose.

In my mind is hope immense,
Ample yearning, ample fondness.
Amid excess, just a bit
Will You or won't You give, that too I don't follow.

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It is peculiar!

(3377) Ruper aloke arup esecho

With form's splendor the Formless You have come;
How is it anybody was not knowing?
The world You've filled with thoughts of love;
That fact, were folks not grasping?

In Braja You've endured, Braja's Krsna;
In the mental sphere, Your Braja You have formed.
With Jamuna abrim to overflowing,
It's astonishing that anyone was not seeing.

That Jamuna, it has been drying up today;
People have gone on to forget Your tale.
A clever heart, Yourself remembering,
It plays upon a lyre solitary.

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The look of love

(3376) Sonar kamal phuteche

A gold lotus has appeared
In the pond of mind this morning.
In the mind exclusively can it be seen;
It exudes honey inside mind only.

Having taken so much pain the arrival is;
Only then, the lengthy hope it fulfilled.
An overflowing love effusive
Wakened, it encircling.

By the light of a jeweled lamp I espy:
Hidden are You, oh what a surprise,
My eyes having tenderized
At psyche's stronghold, hard to reach.

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Now and then I believe

(3375) E ke ajana pathik elo

Who is this Unknown Traveler that arrived?
Why had He been far away, I know not.
Why does He withdraw, not want to pause;
Why does He grant no embrace, I fathom not.

In the wee small hours weeping had I been;
Amid darkness, from fear had I been frightened.
Watching the sunrise I have seen
Whose kindness; this I imagined not.

At midday with the sun's intense heat,
Like a burning flame of dismay raging,
Always I've been looking for relief;
To recognize, pious endeavor I did not.

Underneath the evening-sun's heaven ruddy,
In hope or despair I've gone on struggling.
I proclaim obeisance, there is no prayer;
Anything but grace I crave not.

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Unrequited is this love of mine

(3374) Phulera mala varanadala

Floral garland and a wicker basket,^[1]
They're arrayed for Your sake fruitlessly.
The day goes away, watches^[2] have passed;
It seems that You won't come to my dwelling.

In the crimson color at daybreak You have smiled;
Upon thought You've risen like a bloom, evening's lady of the night.
You have mingled with night's heap of moonlight;
With a pleasing sandal-paste, heart is brimming.

Even so, why don't You hear my words;
Why don't You fathom my heart's anguish?
Why don't You come under my hope's lantern,
In the sun's garments, illuminating.

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A king unique

(3373) Tumi keman raja kei ba jane

What sort of king are You, does anybody perceive?
There is neither minister nor army;
With work always You've stayed engaged or thinking.

Sleeping or awake, in thinking or in dreaming,
With a ringing or a tinkling sound You're alert constantly.
There's no boundary of knowledge, no measure of mind-state;
Through song You have been engrossed in the light's melody.

Day and night, You keep company with everybody,
Singly and jointly, in cadence and in mode of melody.
When I go on pondering, I don't find any bank;
Hey Dearest Darling, You dance alone, solitary.

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I beg a fleeting glance alone...

(3372) Shuni tumi bhalabaso

I hear that You dote;
Why then do You stay remote?
And why, if that be so, myself
In tears, You keep disowned?

With You my acquaintance,
It's not a fact of just a few ages.
It had been before my attachment;
But spurn that attachment, please don't.

Day and night, evening and morn,
Time everlasting You are.
For an instant, all good or bad times ignored,
A brief look at me please throw.

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The power of love...

(3371) Ankhira taray mamata bhara

From pupil of eye full of warmth,
By its invitation You had arrived.
Who is that votary, on whom squeezing heart,
You lavished the sweetness of mind?

What had been good in the world, everything,
Amid You alone it was embodied.
For all those unconscious, through cognition's wine,
The molecule You wakened with a reed pipe.

Into a floral bosom honey You did pour;
All of those seen You simply took with love.
The moon on a dark night, You let it be brought;
By fondness, what did You not realize!

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Who approaches whom?

(3370) Mamata makha nayane

With eyes coated by affection,
At grove of anticipation,
You'd gazed into my own heart.

I don't fathom that which I desire;
I do not want to realize.
Topic of Your kindness I ponder at no time;
I look not in Your eyes' direction.

Hey Abiding Friend, Darling Dearest,
My Companion in both happiness and sadness,
Known easily by every intellect as kin of self,
Having arrived close by and having loved,
You smile at the core in those lonesome.

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