Ever unworthy and yet

(3394) Duhkhe sukhe asha nirasha phanke

Twixt grief and gladness, in chinks between hope and despair,
With both gloom and luster my days go by.
At any time Dawn may draw nigh upon the dance stage;
On golden shore might coruscate Your light.

Hey my Lord, I want that You come closer please;
Of all the great pageantry You are the totality.
The essence of essence in all happenings,
You're the bright blue lotus in the Heaven of mind.

I am sinful, and mine is no sadhana, I concede;
For the Supreme Being is no steadfast longing.
Nevertheless, there's no prohibition to come near;
You're the crimson glow on the coast of life.

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